My Spirit Guru is teaching me
How to live in such a way as to
serve Life while serving myself
I feel both blessed and chosen, and yet
I also feel almost certain that
I have gone beyond my potential,
As well as my comfort zone,
And still there is no end in sight.
It is of no real consolation to me
When Spirit assures me that
There is no end.
Perhaps easy was never promised, but
I had a different idea of what this path
To enlightenment would be to travel.
A certain energy vibration impels me on.
It is as if my own energy is becoming
More and more interconnected with
An energy beyond my control.
Perhaps the truth is that, even if
I tried, I would not be able to quit, now.
And yet the struggle goes on.
Spirit tells me that struggle is
Necessary but, that’s not why
I do it, for, if the truth were told,
Much of my struggle seems to be
Not to move forward, but rather
To resist doing so.
I am not the person I was, when it
All began, and I seem to know that
I am not the person I will become,
And yet, at the same time, I am
And have always been, and will
Always be me.