Constraints as Challenging Bars

Spirit shares ageless wisdom with me, but
it seems to require never-ending development.

I obviously don’t have what it takes.
I struggle, as many others surely do,
to live within constraints not of my own
choosing.

Spirit claims that I do choose and am
trying to avoid accepting responsibility
for choices I freely make.

But, how free are we to make choices
when the choice I seem to need to make
is the lesser of two or more otherwise
unacceptable choices? Spirit is unimpressed
with my whimpering. It doesn’t move him.

Constraints, He tells me, are necessary to future
progress in any discipline or area of human
development, including spiritual, intellectual,
or material, in that they provide challenges to
our present level of skill, as well as serving to
soften our ego’s otherwise smug sense of
satisfaction in the moment of victory.

Challenges that we have faced and overcome
seem to whisper to our inner ear,
perhaps we should raise the bar.

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Acceptance follows Awareness

Spirit shares words of wisdom with me, and with
whomever else cares to join our one-to-one sessions.

Spirit tells me that acceptance follows awareness
or it does not.

But, this is not our I Ching lesson.

This is a truth that goes beyond I Ching.

How can truth go beyond a way to truth?

It must, of necessity.

As in the goal being beyond the journey?

Yes.

But, if a goal is beyond a journey, or path,
to that goal, then how can it ever be reached.

It cannot.

Then why do some of us struggle to find and
then to follow our way to wherever if
wherever does not exist?

It does exist, and it calls us to itself.

But, why struggle to go there if we can
never reach it?

We do reach it.

How?

As we travel towards truth, truth is
also moving towards us.

Is there a half-way meeting place?

No.

Then what?

As we absorb truth, truth is also absorbing
us. We become one.

But not equal parts of one?

Yes, never equal, for we are becoming;
we are even now, one within an all-
inclusive one.

Wow! But, back to awareness and acceptance.

We can never go back.

Life is not linear.

Spirit tells me that life must be a struggle if we are to learn how to live

In such a way that serves us well as individuals, while, at the same time,

Contributes to the well-being of whatever world we happen to be

Living in at any given time.

 

What does that mean?

 

What does what mean?

 

About living in different worlds at the same time. Do you mean

During one lifetime?

 

Yes.

 

How is that possible?

 

Life is not linear. It is multi-dimensional. We each live in many worlds

At the same time.

 

Such as?

 

Each role we play in life requires us to live in a different world.

 

And each relationship?

 

Yes.

 

 

Pawns can make a Difference in the Game

Spirit tells me that I am, as I sometimes suspect that

I might be, and yet struggle against the very idea of

Being, no more than a pawn in the Game of Life.

 

Pawns can and do make a difference, He tells me, as if

That would cheer me up. Yes, He continues, pawns can be

Part of winning a game, but only if they are willing to serve

A skilled, master of the game.

 

Spirit is not without ego. The implication is, of course,

That I am the pawn while He is the skilled, master player.

 

The rules of the game are Universal Laws, but the Spirit

Of the game is Love. The rules are inflexible, in the same

Sense that four o’clock comes at the same each day,

Whether or not your day’s work is done.

 

The good news…

 

Wow! There’s good news? I try to sound sarcastic, but,

It’s wasted on Him.

 

The good news, without seeming to have noticed my

Interruption, is that the Game of Life is directed by Love,

And, Love allows for compassion.

 

That’s so good to know.

 

But, rules are rules.

 

Struggle may not help a rock

Spirit tells me that struggle can never help us to become

Anything that we have no potential to become.

 

But, a rock may never know that it has no potential to

Become a tree until it tries again and again,

Without success.

 

However, the rock may discover that it does have potential

To become what it now is, a rock.

 

People are not rocks.

 

What are they?

 

They, we are living forms of intelligent energy.

 

And rocks are not?

 

Perhaps they are, but people have potential.

 

Yes.

 

What does that mean?

 

More struggle might help you.

 

 

 

Seekers of the Limit

Spirit tells me that we are here in physical form

To refine our essence, and our essence is potential.

 

Each mountain we climb, and each and every struggle

Is as climbing a mountain, prepares us to climb ever higher.

 

From the valleys to foothills and then to the highest peaks.

And, as we climb higher and higher, we serve as inspiration

To those who struggle to follow, not us, but the way

We follow our dream.

 

And, as high as we might climb, we seem to know that

Ahead of us there will always be heights beyond heights,

Where other climbers who, like us, are seekers of the limit.

 

Learning to Understand Life

Spirit asks me if I would wish anyone else to share

Such a relationship as we seem to.

 

The answer to that one is easy, and simple.. No.

I would not wish for anyone the stress of the strugggle

I experience, with no end in sight.

 

Why do you continue?

 

I’m not aware of any option. Besides, I seem to

Need to hold on as long as I can.

 

Why?

 

There could be some reward, and perhaps

Learning is its own reward.

 

What are you learning?

 

To understand life.

 

What have you learned so far?

 

That it’s still a mystery, to me.

 

Yes.

 

 

 

The struggle goes on, and on

My Spirit Guru is teaching me

How to live in such a way as to

serve Life while serving myself

and others.

 

 

I feel both blessed and chosen, and yet

I also feel almost certain that

I have gone beyond my potential,

As well as my comfort zone,

And still there is no end in sight.

 

It is of no real consolation to me

When Spirit assures me that

There is no end.

 

Perhaps easy was never promised, but

I had a different idea of what this path

To enlightenment would be to travel.

 

A certain energy vibration impels me on.

It is as if my own energy is becoming

More and more interconnected with

An energy beyond my control.

 

Perhaps the truth is that, even if

I tried, I would not be able to quit, now.

And yet the struggle goes on.

and on.

 

Spirit tells me that struggle is

Necessary but, that’s not why

I do it, for, if the truth were told,

Much of my struggle seems to be

Not to move forward, but rather

To resist doing so.

 

I am not the person I was, when it

All began, and I seem to know that

I am not the person I will become,

And yet, at the same time, I am

And have always  been, and will

Always be me.

 

 

Nothing more and nothing less

Spirit tells me that

Other seekers of enlightenment

Who read of my struggle to learn

From Spirit, while maintaining, or

Attempting to maintain, devotion to

Physical as well as spiritual life,

Alone or with others who are

Alone together, more or less,

May find that my struggle

Offers something to think about

That may help them grow in

Understanding of why

Life is as it is, or

Seems to be,

An endless cycle or series of

Experiences, designed,

If they are,

To teach us what?

 

Spirit tells me that

We share what we care

To share, nothing more, and,

Nothing less.