It was not love at first sight, at least not in a physical sense, since I

Have not yet developed the capacity to visualize that area wherein

Form and essence merge in ever-finer elements of matter.

 

But, human and spirit qualities seem to be, in many ways,

More close than similar. And, so would be the potentially

Seductive nature of student and teacher attraction.

 

When I ask Spirit to explain why mutual attraction to

Spiritual values could …

 

Be corrupted? The corruption, or danger of such, is in

My own mind, or it isn’t.

 

He then reminds me of the countless gurus I have followed

Throughout many lifetimes, or so it seems, with each one

Falling from grace, in my mind.

 

They didn’t fall; they seemed to crash. Confucius might calmly

Comment, “No blame”, but I was, each and every time,

Devastated and confused. I was sure, beyond a doubt, again,

Again, and yet again that I had discovered a philosophy

To live by that explained everything, until it didn’t.

 

Will I meet the same fate?

 

How can I know..?

 

Until or unless it happens?

 

Yes, and perhaps that scares me.

 

Why? When it is time to move on to another teacher, we must,

Or stagnate.

 

My earlier teachers belonged to recorded history…

 

So, were less personally a part of your life?

 

Yes.