The shattering of a way of life

Spirit guided my hand as I drew the card,

The Tarot card XVI (16) – The Tower.

I could have guessed.

The image visually displays

An explosion. The tower is shattered,

And two people are sent falling into

Whatever hostile environment, below.

This graphic image represents a

Crisis; financial, physical, emotional, whatever.

Everything is gone. How

To go on. For me it was an

Ending of a relationship that,

Perhaps never existed. Could it

Have been an illusion? Anger

At my disclosing that Spirit was

With me and within me. Does he

Really believe me. Or, does he suspect

That I have lost my mind, if

I ever had a mind to lose.

Communing with Spirit? Of course

It was foolish of me to even think

That he might believe. But,

Why the anger, if I am happy

In my illusion, if illusion it is,

And I am. I feel blessed, but,

What a price to pay; rejection by

Someone I love.

 

 

All that we can do is

Spirit tells me that

All that we can do may never

Be enough to achieve what

We might have achieved if

We could do more, but that

All that we can do is

All that we can do, and

We will do all that we can

To serve Life by caring for

Ourselves and our community,

As if such caring was

A sacred duty, and

It is.

 

The Horizon of My Mind

Spirit suggests that I visualize Him as

The horizon of my own mind, and to

Attempt to come closer to Him.

 

This concept seems to fit our relationship

Very well, for, as I draw closer to Him,

To His thinking, sustained, to some degree by

The gems of wisdom He provides

My sponge-like appetite,

I never seem to be able

To reach the understanding,

Awareness, and depth of knowing

That He possesses.

 

Even knowing, or believing that I know

Much more than I ever did, before

He came into my life,

He seems to be able to encourage

My development without fully

Satisfying it. Why?

 

That would end the game, He tells me.

What game are we playing?

Life.

Life?

Yes.

 

Choosing gives meaning to our life

Spirit tells me that

It is by choosing how we live,

And why, that gives

Meaning to our life

Our lifestyle consists of

Chosen patterns of activity

And these patterns of behaviour

Can become fixed and rigid, or

They can dissolve into nothingness,

Unless we are aware of how

They serve us and when.

 

Awareness, alone, is not enough,

He tells me. We must

Continuously choose to adapt

Our thinking, our emotional

responses, and, our attitude

To life, if we choose

To develop a more meaningful

Lifestyle, wherein

Our daily patterns of activity

Are in harmony with our goal,

To transform the way we live

Our life.

Complexity within simplicity or

Spirit asks me to consider whether

Life is complexity within simplicity, or

Simplicity within complexity.

Then, almost before I can begin

To try to determine which,

Or if neither description of

Life is applicable, He

Asks me to visualize

The intricate web of Life and,

To ask myself where I am

Within that web, or if I am

Separate from that web. Am I

Within or part of the web.

Again, without waiting for

My doomed to be inadequate

Response, He tells me that

We are separate, but,

Only for as long as

We believe we are.