We each are as a story within a story

Spirit tells me that we each are as a double agent, but only one side is

Aware of this until we realize that everything we do, or choose not to do,

Influences those around us, as well as all life around us, and

Everything is Life.

 

Whatever we do, for whatever reason, in some way makes a difference.

 

How we each live our individual life tells a story. We each are a story, and

The story we tell, and are, dissolves into or integrates within

Ten thousand, more or less, other stories.

 

Even so, these seemingly countless numbers of individual and collective

Stories are only one small part of an ever-larger and ever-expanding

Story of Life.

 

An inner palette of life-force energy

Spirit tells me that we each possess a unique blend of

Life-force energies that express themselves as

Potentialities. However, nothing we experience is unique,

Except that it is necessarily a personal experience.

 

The colours of our inner energy palette can be blended

With each other in seemingly endless ways. Our unique

Blend of life-force energies makes the difference in how

We each create and experience life.

 

Does all this activity go on behind the scenes? or between

The lines of the story of my life?

 

Are you asking me if you are aware of what is happening?

 

Yes.

 

Then the answer is obviously no.

 

Is it possible to be aware?

 

Of what?

 

Of my life-force energies.

 

Yes.

 

 

 

 

 

Learning to Understand Life

Spirit asks me if I would wish anyone else to share

Such a relationship as we seem to.

 

The answer to that one is easy, and simple.. No.

I would not wish for anyone the stress of the strugggle

I experience, with no end in sight.

 

Why do you continue?

 

I’m not aware of any option. Besides, I seem to

Need to hold on as long as I can.

 

Why?

 

There could be some reward, and perhaps

Learning is its own reward.

 

What are you learning?

 

To understand life.

 

What have you learned so far?

 

That it’s still a mystery, to me.

 

Yes.

 

 

 

How we live develops patterns

Spirit suggests that I become increasingly aware of

The patters of thought, emotion, and behaviour that

I am developing.

 

How we live each lifetime is important, He tells me,

Not just for this particular lifetime but also for how

It will influence future lifetimes.

 

How we respond to any challenge that Life

Presents us with affects and is affected by

The individual patterns of thought, emotion, and

Behaviour that we have developed.

 

These lifestyle patterns; for they are styles among

Countless other styles, tend to become habitual

Ways of responding, or reacting, to whatever.

 

Our thoughts and emotions, He tells me, are

Different types of energies that harmonize, or

Do not. How we understand and respond to

Experience expresses both thought and emotion.

 

Spirit asks me to become increasingly aware that

My individual energies and how well they harmonize

With each other will, does, affect everyone and

Everything in my life, Himself included.

 

What an awesome responsibility.

 

Yes.

 

 

 

How we learn who we are

Spirit tells me that we are as individual sparks of Life

Experiencing life.

 

We learn to know who we are and what we are by

Experiencing relationships with other sparks of Life,

Of intensities that may differ, in some way, or ways,

To our own.

 

They are, these other sparks, what and whom they have

Become, as are we.

 

The strengths and weaknesses of other sparks

Provide us with a means of knowing our own, by

Comparing ourselves with others.

 

This awareness is not meant to be used to judge

Others, nor ourselves. Differences exist and are

As a gift to everyone.

 

How would it be possible, He asks me, to know

Anything, if nothing or no-one differed, or seemed

Not to,, from anyone or anything else, in any way?

How could we grow? or be aware that we had, or

Had not?

 

Awareness of differences can serve to inspire each

Of us to become, not as any other, but all that we can,

And in this way, inspire others to do the same,

Not be the same.

Do you try to look?

Spirit asks me if I can understand why whatever is

Happening is happening, before I am aware that

Whatever is happening is happening?

 

I protest. Something is always happening.

 

Yes.

 

Then what should I do?

 

You could practice understanding why what has

Happened has happened, even while you practice

Being aware of what now is happening.

 

I try.

 

Do you try to look?

 

Alone or in a Crowd

Spirit tells me that individuality does not necessarily mean

Exclusion from oneness.

 

We each are as we each are, alone or in a crowd. We can

Never not be what we are, but we can pretend, for

Whatever reason or reasons.

 

However, the danger of pretending to be what we

Know we are not arises when we forget that we are

Pretending.

 

Our response to any experience is a very individual one,

Regardless of how many others may share that

Experience with us. Our personal response changes us,

Sometimes at a very deep level of our existence, our

Being, our essence.

 

This, Spirit tells me, is the purpose of experience:

To help us become aware of who and what we are,

As individuals and as one with Life.

 

 

 

Memories as snippets of reality in a sea of fiction

Spirit tells me that most, if not all of my memories, that I

Seem to think of as original videos of past events and

Experiences are no more than snippets of reality

Within a sea of fiction.

 

Are you saying that I create or created my memories?

 

Yes, to both questions. We continuously up-date our

Memories of the past, to reflect our current understanding,

Unless we have become trapped within an earlier.,more

Rigid and less developed state of awareness.

 

But, I remember…

 

Yes, but do you also remember remembering whatever and,

If you do, then you will be aware that your current

Understanding has evolved, or it has not.

 

In Essence there is No Individuality

Spirit tells me that, in essence, there is no individuality.

However, He claims, the illusion of such serves us well.

 

Our purpose for living this human experience is

To enable us to share what we learn with others

And to accept that all others have something

Of value to share with us, whether or not

Any of us is aware of this reciprocity.

 

Simply living is not enough and is not possible.

Part of our mission on Earth is to become

Increasingly aware of how we are living and to

Choose to live a life that brings us satisfaction,

Pleasure, and a sense of purpose.

 

In time, perhaps over several lifetimes,

We will become increasingly aware that we

Share our life with others, whether we care to

Or not, and that others share their life with us,

Whether they know it or not.

 

We learn from each other. We are never alone in

Any real sense, for what we have become, in

Essence, has developed from interacting with

Others. Nobody is completely individual.

We are one.

However, a certain sense of individuality serves us all well, for it allows, and requires us to accept responsibility for choices we make for ourselves, and, unavoidable, for others.

The Lie we live serves us well, or does it?

Spirit tells me of a certain woman He knows,

Better than she knows herself, who,

Lived a lie. To all she knew or

Thought she knew, she was a fool,

A simple fool who could not, or

Would not face the truth, and then

Something happened, or did it,

And, if it did, then how and why.

 

We only see what we see and know

What we know, and we hardly know

Ourselves, so how can we dare

To think that we can know

Someone else.

 

She was aware, Spirit tells me, of

Being considered a simple fool, and

She played that game, buying time,

Until the fear of facing the truth,

Her truth, would become less than

The pain of living a lie. And,

She seemed to know, or

At least trusted that it was

Only a matter of time, and that

Time was on her side, and

It was, and is, and, so it is

With everyone.