Defeat is not Surrender

Spirit teaches me His own style of

Meditation. He does not accept that

Meditation should calm the mind..

 

Spirit seems to believe that

The mind should be agitated and

All dearly-held beliefs and

Understandings be put

Under attack, debated,

Challenged by His

Superior thought system.

 

When I tell people that

I meditate often, they ask

If it relaxes my mind and

Look disbelieving when

I tell them it exhausts me.

 

Focus, Spirit teaches, on whatever

Aspect of my understanding or beliefs

He has chosen to alter. Somehow

I begin with confidence that,

Since I have spent a lifetime

Seeking greater understanding of

Philosophical and spiritual

Principles, that I have nothing

More to learn. My arrogant

Confidence, He loves, and

Perhaps, delights all the more

In dissolving, one by one,

Precious truths..

 

I never surrender; I struggle

To the inevitable, it seems,

End. My defense, sooner or

Later, collapses, and I must,

With great reluctance,

Let it go, and accept

Spirit’s more logical and

Compassionate wisdom.

He wins, again. 

 

 

There is no here and now

Spirit tells me that

There is no here and now.

Show me, He asks, point to here,

Point to now, on the clock.

Today, this, morning, tonight,

Yesterday and tomorrow make

Sense, from a so-called civilized

Society. Even then these terms are

Unstable and move as the Earth does,

And as the Universe moves, with

Intent beyond our understanding.

 

Spirit goes on to promise to

Correct me if I should ever use

Simplistic, nonsensical terminology

When communicating with him.

 

Nothing more and nothing less

Spirit tells me that

Other seekers of enlightenment

Who read of my struggle to learn

From Spirit, while maintaining, or

Attempting to maintain, devotion to

Physical as well as spiritual life,

Alone or with others who are

Alone together, more or less,

May find that my struggle

Offers something to think about

That may help them grow in

Understanding of why

Life is as it is, or

Seems to be,

An endless cycle or series of

Experiences, designed,

If they are,

To teach us what?

 

Spirit tells me that

We share what we care

To share, nothing more, and,

Nothing less.

The Horizon of My Mind

Spirit suggests that I visualize Him as

The horizon of my own mind, and to

Attempt to come closer to Him.

 

This concept seems to fit our relationship

Very well, for, as I draw closer to Him,

To His thinking, sustained, to some degree by

The gems of wisdom He provides

My sponge-like appetite,

I never seem to be able

To reach the understanding,

Awareness, and depth of knowing

That He possesses.

 

Even knowing, or believing that I know

Much more than I ever did, before

He came into my life,

He seems to be able to encourage

My development without fully

Satisfying it. Why?

 

That would end the game, He tells me.

What game are we playing?

Life.

Life?

Yes.

 

How the Spirit Mentor System Works

Spirit describes to to me how the mentor system works:

Teacher and student are

Attracted to each other

For different reasons.

 

The field of energy

Between them is

real and dynamic

 

A pressure gradient of

Information and understanding

Flows both ways.

Respect and gratitude

From the Student

Determine, at least

To some extent

How beneficial

The relationship is, and

Are necessary components of

That relationship, that

Energy field.

 

Also, an inner compulsion

Or destiny

Is at Work, and

A goal beyond what

Either teacher or student

Is aware of.

I Complain to Spirit, Again

This time, my complaint to Spirit is about someone in my life, whom I do not understand. Her attitude and her behaviour do not make sense to me.

Spirit tells me that she is what she is because that is the way she is.

The only question that makes sense, He tells me, is why is she or why does she seems to be the way she seems to be?

The answer is, Spirit explains, is that her original nature has been modified by lived experience, followed by at least some degree of reflection on that lived experience. This has provided her with a certain degree of understanding as to the causes and consequences of her lived experiences.

Perhaps, He concludes, she is satisfied, more or less, with the way she seems to some to be.