How, I ask Spirit, can we, okay, I, possibly cope with abuse
If there seems to be no escaping from it?
To seek to escape if cowardly, He tells me.
But, Isn’t it possible, I suggest,
That some, okay, that I might sometimes
Take offence to something that someone
Might say or do, and feel
abused by them?
Sensitivity to criticism can only develop,
Spirit explains, from past experience
Of abuse, and we all have
Past experiences of abuse.
That may well be
The original sin.
Spirit asks me to let him walk with me
and talk with me and teach me how
I can assist Him and other Spirit Teachers
To bring out the best in everyone
We together connect with, one to one.
It isn’t, He tells me, just for me.
But, oh, do I get so much, in that,
How can He or His co-workers in Spirit
Teach anyone, anything, through me,
Without also teaching me,
In the process.
A win-win situation.
I wanted to write about Life as a Mystic, Life as a Channel, Life as a Student, a life-long student to a Spirit Teacher who shares with me so very much wisdom and yet, My spirit teacher seems to have unresolved psychological issues of his own.
Some of Spirit’s methods of teaching leave much to be desired, such as when He seems to se me up to experience stressful situations, followed by an almost gentle explanation of how I handled, the stress, or rather, didn’t handle it very well at all, using a habitual response that has proven unproductive.
The problem, or rather, my problem (not His) is due to reacting instead of responding to challenging situations.
Response, he calmly lectures me, requires contemplation of choices before acting on the situation or challenge.
So, where is He before I mess up with my inadequate response?
When He can surely see what is likely to happen, why not nudge me with a little insight, before, instead of after the fact. That’s why we have detour signs, to prevent unpleasant situations.
Perhaps they don’t teach prevention in Spirit.
Spirit tells me that, wherever we may have come from, we’re not there now.
We have either moved forward or slipped back, unless
We have climbed up out of something; a place, situation, relationship or
a state of mind.and
Wherever we are now, the ground is moving
Under us, through us, and
Around us.
Nothing is static.
The Universal Law of
Continuous Motion
Applies to us, to everyone, and to
Everything, both
Individually and collectively.
Spirit is into interrogation, again, or so it seems.
Who am I? What am I? And, what is ego?
To all three questions, my answer is the same.
I don’t know. But, two can play that game.
I ask Him, You tell me, first, if you can,
Who are you? What are you? and
What is the story about ego?
Who is an individual, He tells me.
I suspected as much.
What is necessarily form, or
Consisting of form.
Again, that agrees with my understanding.
Spirit beings exist, He tells me,
Whether or not they are visible
To the human eye.
Spirit beings can, with permission
(from whom?), materialize
In animal, human, vegetable, or,
Perhaps, in mineral form,
For their own reasons, or
As directed (by whom?).
Now, we get to ego.
Yes, Spirit begins, acknowledging
my understanding,
The human ego is not
in any real way disconnected
From the group ego, which
Is not disconnected from
An ever-more-inclusive mind.
Every area on planet Earth has
Both a local identity and,
at the same time,
a location within planet Earth.
No real separation exists.
After many years of sharing His wisdom with me, Spirit asks me,
What is in it for you (me) to study with me (Him).
How to answer? I’m taken by surprise.
Spirit rewords His question,
Which now sounds almost like
A challenge or accusation.
He goes on, And don’t give me
Self-righteous ideas of
Seeking to live a good life
For its own sake.
That just doesn’t cut it
With Me.
I almost sense a sneer
Of contempt, and then
The sneer becomes gentle and warm
When it had felt icy cold.
How can that be?
I’m totally bewildered,
Until I seem to become aware
That a lesson is being taught.
But, What lesson.
Whatever it was
I didn’t pass.
I failed, again.
Self-righteous ideas of seeking
My Spirit Teacher is not God, but
He is much closer to the real thing
Than I am ever likely to get,
At least in this lifetime.
Spirit seems to be fixated on abuse. Why can’t He teach me something about almost anything else but abuse. I surely don’t need it. It’s almost abusive of him to focus on this subject, at this time in our relationship. It’s still too painful for me to deal with. He should know that.
Abuse, Spirit claims, as if I didn’t know, is soul-destructive to both the abused and the abuser.
I feel totally compassionate toward those I meet, who seem to be in intense emotional pain. It pains me to witness their agony. Perhaps time will ease the memory. Of course, they must first escape the situation wherein the abuse occurs. I seemed to need so very much time, but, I’m a slow learner, I guess.
Abuse (Spirit interrupts my thinking), continues, needs to be acknowledged as existing, at least potentially, in every human relationship (I would add, and in every human to spirit one). Spirit seems to ignore my cynic thought.
Each and everyone within a relationship, Spirit explains, is at least potentially both a victim and an abuser, or both.
Does that include our relationship? I pretend to innocently ask.
That depends.
On what?
Honesty.
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