Confidence As A Trap

Spirit asks me what it means to be intelligent.

To be able to think.

What does it mean to be able to think?

About what?

About anything.

To think is to become aware of what is happening
in and around me.

No.

How can I become aware without first thinking?

How can you think without first becoming aware?

Then, thinking is to intentionally focus on
whatever I become aware of?

For what purpose?

To understand.

To understand what?

Why it is the way it seems to be,

Why?

To satisfy my curiosity.

And?

To consider how to respond to this new
awareness.

Yes.

But …

But what?

If I have developed a response that has become
a habit, how would thinking be involved?

It would not be.

Thinking would be bypassed?

Yes.

Then, I would become as the scientist’s dog?

Yes.

Expecting results that may not happen?

Yes.

So, what is the answer?

To what?

How is it possible or even desirable to use
precious time considering results other than
what we have become confident of, if those
results are all that we are familiar with?

How to consider the unexpected?

Yes.

Confidence can become as a trap.

The wild card?

Yes.
To understand what?

Envy Wants.

Spirit shares gems of wisdom.

Spirit tells me that our spiritual journey through
the illusion that is human life must pass through
many valleys of doubt and wind around dark mountains
and dense forests of insecurity and fear.

We will lose faith in ourselves and even in the existence
of our goal, again and again. But, we will move on and on,
for something stronger and surer than our own will prepares
the path we follow, as the wise ones have always assured us.

Trust in yourself, He tells me. Build confidence on
the awareness of having come as far as you have. How did
you do it? Not without help. All angels and spirit guides
are dedicated to our success. And, so, we can none of us
not succeed. It’s only a matter of …

Time?

Not time, for there is none, or none that can be accurately measured.

Then, when we each are ready?

Yes.

Then, how do I cope with my distress with myself for not
being able to become what I seem to know that I can become,
as quickly as I would like to?

What’s the hurry?

I seem to feel that I’m wasting precious time.

Compared to the progress of some others?

Perhaps.

Yes. The need to compete is not entirely socially conditioned.
It is part of our nature, but its natural purpose has been
distorted by social conditioning.

Doing our best can inspire others to do more than they might
otherwise do. It was not designed to diminish others. Likewise,

We should admire those who seem to ee able to do what we
cannot?

Yes. recognition of excellence is mutually beneficial.
It both expresses respect and inspires us, not necessarily
to be great, but to be the best that we can be. Envy is
neither emotionally nor spiritually a healthy state of mind.

Envy wants what other have without considering the price
some others may have paid for their success?

Yes.

The steering wheel of my life

Spirit tells me that it isn’t necessary for me to let go of

The steering wheel of my life until I can do so willingly,

And with confidence that God, Life, The Universe, or

He will take control.

 

But, He suggests that if I can learn to relax and gradually

Release the tenseness of my grip on the wheel, then

This will improve the quality of the ride and allow me to

Enjoy the scenery.

My socially conditioned thoughts and emotions

When I insist to Spirit that I am what I am and I need

What I need, then He, with a confidence that I very

Much envy, tells me that my more or less loosely

Organized system of thoughts and emotions is a

Conditioned one.

 

Who conditioned me?

 

You did, with help, of course.

 

Why? and for what purpose?

 

To conform to a static social order that never existed.

 

Why would I do that?

 

God only knows, but hopes you will do yourself and

Everyone else the favour of getting to know who and

What you really are.

 

 

 

Defeat is not Surrender

Spirit teaches me His own style of

Meditation. He does not accept that

Meditation should calm the mind..

 

Spirit seems to believe that

The mind should be agitated and

All dearly-held beliefs and

Understandings be put

Under attack, debated,

Challenged by His

Superior thought system.

 

When I tell people that

I meditate often, they ask

If it relaxes my mind and

Look disbelieving when

I tell them it exhausts me.

 

Focus, Spirit teaches, on whatever

Aspect of my understanding or beliefs

He has chosen to alter. Somehow

I begin with confidence that,

Since I have spent a lifetime

Seeking greater understanding of

Philosophical and spiritual

Principles, that I have nothing

More to learn. My arrogant

Confidence, He loves, and

Perhaps, delights all the more

In dissolving, one by one,

Precious truths..

 

I never surrender; I struggle

To the inevitable, it seems,

End. My defense, sooner or

Later, collapses, and I must,

With great reluctance,

Let it go, and accept

Spirit’s more logical and

Compassionate wisdom.

He wins, again.