Monthly Archives: November 2013

What’s In It For Me

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After many years of sharing His wisdom with me, Spirit asks me,

What is in it for you (me) to study with me (Him).

How to answer? I’m taken by surprise.

Spirit rewords His question,

Which now sounds almost like

A challenge or accusation.

He goes on, And don’t give me

Self-righteous ideas of

Seeking to live a good life

For its own sake.

That just doesn’t cut it

With Me.

I almost sense a sneer

Of contempt, and then

The sneer becomes gentle and warm

When it had felt icy cold.

How can that be?

I’m totally bewildered,

Until I seem to become aware

That a lesson is being taught.

But, What lesson.

Whatever it was

I didn’t pass.

I failed, again.

Self-righteous ideas of seeking

The Life of Walk and Talk with Spirit

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It was going to be the adventure of a lifetime,

my lifetime.

It was never about money, and yet,

Money is a necessity, or

The means to the necessities

Of life. After all,

What can you do without money,

In our society?

I wanted to write about Spirit.

I seemed to need to write about Spirit and

About his intensely wise philosophy of

Simple living, but

How simple is still satisfying is

Where we disagreed.

He could, it seemed,

More easily talk the talk than

I could or can walk his walk.

There has to be a middle way

I tell Him. Even Buddha

Was aware of that.

Individuality as a minute in time

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Spirit tells me that He and I are, or represent, two dimensions of one mind that is, itself, just as one dimension of a more expansive expression of an even more expansive conscious and intelligent awareness that continuously expands, or, as some say, evolves.

I say, Wow! And how does that affect our relationship?

It doesn’t.

Searching for a Spiritual Guru

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You will find your Guru within yourself. Why can I not remember who told me that, a thousand years or more. I remember not being overly impressed with this seemingly casual remark. The speaker could not possibly have experienced the countless times when I thought I had found the ideal, for me, teacher of perennial wisdom, who would lead me, eagerly following, along the path, or way, of enlightenment – that magic word, which was to me as a promised fairyland might be to young children.

Sure, I thought, but was too conditioned not to be polite.

Perhaps meditation was the way to go. I’m told it works for tens of thousands of seekers, but this one falls asleep the minute she relaxes, or so it seemed during the TM sessions I attended, away back then. I wonder if they are still doing it?

Doing what? Spirit interrupts my reverie.

Meditating.

Everyone meditates, consciously aware of the fact, or not.

How could they not be aware of meditating.

If you were, no, when you are meditating, and you spend hours each day doing just that, how aware are you of doing so?

I’m not.

Great, then you’re doing it right.

The Limits of Relationship

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Spirit tells me that we can either be separate or merge.

But, I want both. Why can’t we have it both ways?

There are many more ways than one, He then tells me, to see, to think, to feel, and to hear. And, there are many more ways than one to do, to be, and to grow; to become. Every thing else is disposable, a means to an end, at best, or, a hindrance, unnecessary baggage, or a temporary pleasure that we can’t take with us, as it is. Even the pleasure or pan it brought into our being will, eventually, evaporate into nothingness.

Spirit is into abuse, again

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Spirit seems to be fixated on abuse. Why can’t He teach me something about almost anything else but abuse. I surely don’t need it. It’s almost abusive of him to focus on this subject, at this time in our relationship. It’s still too painful for me to deal with. He should know that.

Abuse, Spirit claims, as if I didn’t know, is soul-destructive to both the abused and the abuser.

I feel totally compassionate toward those I meet, who seem to be in intense emotional pain. It pains me to witness their agony. Perhaps time will ease the memory. Of course, they must first escape the situation wherein the abuse occurs. I seemed to need so very much time, but, I’m a slow learner, I guess.

Abuse  (Spirit interrupts my thinking), continues, needs to be acknowledged as existing, at least potentially, in every human relationship (I would add, and in every human to spirit one). Spirit seems to ignore my cynic thought.

Each and everyone within a relationship, Spirit explains, is at least potentially both a victim and an abuser, or both.

Does that include our relationship? I pretend to innocently ask.

That depends.

On what?

Honesty.

I Ching 33 – Withdrawal

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Today’s I Ching – 33 – Withdrawal

Heaven above, Mountain below. Withdrawal follows Constancy in the order of the Hexagrams.

Spirit explains: Constancy suggests enduring, but, nothing lasts forever, at least not in this physical and material world.

The Universal Law of Interdependence refers to relationships, such as; give and take, come and go,

Does that mean you are leaving me? I ask.

Yes, It does not mean that.

Then what?

Wait and see.

 

Pleasure as an Addiction

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Spirit tells me that pleasure is an addiction, a hard-wired addiction that cannot be overcome
without destroying all meaning to Life.
What is required, He tells me, is acceptance of being an addict and take it from there.
Take it where? I ask.
Where can it be taken?
A question in response to a question. Ping pong?
No, not ping pong, or not necessarily so.
The secret is, He advises, is to claim your addiction.
It sounds personal.
It is meant to sound personal. Claim it, He repeats, and pamper it.