Is Self-Control an Ego Trip?

Spirit tells me that He is only one of many Spirit Teachers who
seek to help willing people to create a satisfying lifestyle,
and that His Fellowship Group are not at all interested in
helping everyone, only those who genuinely care for the world
they live in and for themselves, enough to resist as much as
they can, unhealthy habits. Self-control in all things is
our way, He claims.

It all sounds so noble that I’m annoyed at myself for even
listening to a cynical voice from somewhere in my mind that
whispers to me that, perhaps, His ego has escaped self-control.

Where is the promised book

Spirit has always promised, no, pledged that

We would write His book.

Sure, twenty-five years later and,

Where is the book.

Meanwhile, I have filled

Piles of journals with notes,

Words of wisdom, and

I have served as a channel,

Sometimes, but

Never in a way that

Satisfied my soul.

It all seemed too frivolous,

Unimportant, and yet,

To those involved,

On either side, it was

Obviously satisfying. But,

Nobody seemed to ask Spirit

How to live a good life.

Instead, they wanted to be happy,

Here, and rich, if possible.

Perhaps I do, too.