Awareness is not an End in Itself

Spirit tells me, as if to console my aching heart,
that letting go was never easy
for anyone who ever felt they needed to be
connected to whatever or whomever, until
there didn’t seem to be an acceptable alternative.

The interconnecting energy relaxes on its own,
or will if we will let it.

It didn’t seem to need permission.

We need to learn to allow ourselves to feel
connected as long as it seems to make sense
to be so, and then, the bonds of relationship
relax, gently or otherwise, to facilitate
adaptation to newly developed awareness.

Close relationships will always be close,
unless …

Unless what?

Unless they seem …

To become more or less close?

Yes. Are you aware that you are aware of
a change in certain relationships?

Yes, and yet not as an observer of
outside events.

Yes. We can become increasing aware of
our inner feelings and rationalize
about them without denying them.

Yes, and self-awareness seems to be
non-judgmental.

Yes. It accepts that what is, is,
for whatever reason.

So, where do we go from here?

From where?

From accepting that we feel whatever
strength of whatever emotion about
whatever situation or relationship.

Then it’s time to think and rationalize
about where to go from here.

Feeling has served its purpose?

Yes. Now it’s time to choose
how to act on our awareness.

Then, awareness is not an end it itself?

Never. The price of awareness is responsibility
for whatever response we choose in whatever
situation.

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Discipline requires intent, purpose, and awareness.

Today’s I Ching reading by Spirit.

 

I Ching 60 – Discipline, develops out of Dispersal (59) and moves

Toward Sincerity (61).

 

Spirit explains:  Discipline requires intent, purpose, and awareness of

The price of scattered energy. Those who do not develop self-discipline

Endanger themselves and their society.

 

Not everyone has intent and purpose, or more than limited awareness.

 

You are not everyone.

 

There are also those who would discipline others and organize them as

Followers of their leader’s purpose.

 

I am one of those.

 

Then, where is sincerity?

 

In my dedication to a purpose.

 

Which is?

 

Devotion to Life.

 

 

 

Free will and community

Today’s I Ching is 60 – Discipline

Water over Lake.. Discipline follows Dispersal.

 

Spirit explains:  When a river flows into a lake then water overflows

Onto surrounding land, unless it is restricted from doing so.

 

Dispersal suggests an unorganized scattering, such as seeds or

Dry leaves by a wind.

 

There is no free will choice, no sense of freedom involved when

We have no self-control concerning where we are going with our life.

 

Self-discipline determines what we will do with our potential; how

It will be directed. Without self-control, we risk being controlled by others.

 

How to have it both ways? I need to be free and still be a contributing part of

A community. I need to think for myself and still learn from You and others.

 

Yes, we need both.

 

Then how do we work both sides of the street?

 

We don’t.

 

Then what?

 

We compromise; we find an acceptable middle ground between extremes

Of individualism and group control. But we must always be aware of

The price we choose to pay, or we risk losing choosing.

 

 

More is not necessarily better

Today’s I Ching is 46 – Rising.

 

Spirit explains: Rising follows Gathering in a natural succession.

As we gather together, we rise in numbers, but quantity is not

Necessarily a rising in quality. More is not in itself better or

Worse than less.

 

What does that mean for me?

 

You seem to always want more of something without considering

How it would balance with less of something else.

We pay a price.

 

Or would, if You let me have my way?

 

Yes.

 

 

The Price of Bonding

Spirit tells me that, to the extent that we each influence another,

To that extent we are consuming or being consumed into

The essence of the other. Some call this process bonding.

 

This is, He tells me, a Universal Law, wherein all separated

Aspects of life return to again become one.

 

That may be so, in the long term, but how does knowing that

Affect my life here and now?

 

Have I influenced your thinking?

 

Very much so.

 

Then, are we bonding?

 

Yes, I hope so, but I would resist being consumed.

 

Yes.

 

 

 

Ten thousand easier ways

Spirit tells me that one of us seems to be unaware of

Where we are or where we are going, or

How we have planned to get there.

 

Planned? I don’t remember planning

This route through life.

There simply has to be

An easier way.

 

Perhaps there are ten thousand

Easier ways, He tells me, but

This is your/our way.

 

Did we draw straws or roll dice?

 

Neither of the above. Our way is

A gift that we have given to

Ourselves.

 

How? and Why?

 

Free will or, rather, the price

Or consequence of such.

Closing doors

Who closes the doors that close

On our life and that leave the

Past behind, but in a way that

Doesn’t really let us cope with

Why the doors had to close?

It wasn’t my idea, or was it?

I was totally unaware, or was I,

Of the Price I would be paying,

Perhaps until the end of time,

To follow Spirit. How could I,

How can I explain that

I really had no choice, that

It seemed to be my destiny, and

Though not knowing what the price

Would be, I must have always

Known that, whatever it was,

I would pay. Perhaps not gladly,

But, I would pay.

 

Spirit tells me, gently,

Aware of my pain, that

The doors that seem to be

Closing, were never open,

For me, and that I somehow

Needed to believe that

They were, while knowing

In my soul, that I was just

Pretending, because

I needed to believe,

For whatever reason.